In the quest of key for confusion - added one more….

I was so stressed-out from past three months and utterly messed up in handling my own soul. On Wednesday I went to Gani’s place to share my innermost thoughts, anger, frustration, irritation to be honest I went to give some damki’s. Usually I try to be soft spoken, well balanced & composed soul until & unless things don’t lead from bad to even more worse .Gani-My only boyfriend Lord Ganesh, I trust him to the core & he troubles me to the core. He still got so many nick-names Vinnu, Vicky, Gaj, Om, Vakra etc etc… I recently learnt that he got 1000 other names and well-known with 108. So lucky freak, can flirt with 1000 gals with diverse names ;)

I almost stepped out of temple then I setback myself & decided to discuss with Priest about reason behind ongoing turmoil’s in my life. I actually am an Atheist-To communicate in a broad sense-to a particular god or religion however I believe something called super natural power is taking care of every freaking thing in the universe. When I revealed the things that were bothering me he asked me to go to an astrologer. I said I don’t believe them as they just make all fairy tales and brain wash helpless people I wanna talk to someone trusty. I really do not know what big difference I found between astrologer and Priest that I opted Priest than an astrologer. He honestly helped me to get the contact number of famous well-known Priest Mr. Subramanyam Udupa in the city. I was quite happy as though I am gonna crack some mystery that was playing rugby with me day and night.

Finally I got the appointment on 17^th April @ 1230 hrs. I took shower and rushed to catch the bus to reach where he was put-up i.e., Wilson garden. I reached the door of my hope @ 1130 hrs. I met him near gate, he said I will be back in half an hour time would you mind to wait. I said no, you please carry on of-course I can wait. I thought when I can wait for my dreams to come true forever no matter if it will take my entire life!!! Why not an half an hour..????

As I entered lobby I saw a gal. Jyoti: One more troubled soul like me was eagerly waiting to know answer to her problems. Her husband was accompanying Priest to his destination. After a while I broke the silence asking her is it the first time that she has come here?

Jyoti: No. we know him over the years.

I thought okay I am at the right place seems he is genuine person.

Jyoti: How about u?

Me: yeah first time.

Jyoti: Anything personal as in marriage.

Me: I grinned and said nope it’s about my career.

Jyoti: okay.

Again I was the one to break the silence; coz silence was flooding thousand million thoughts in my mind. I just revealed the reason I have come here in brief not to trouble already troubled soul.

I really don’t know what freaking thing she saw in me that she started sharing all her innermost thoughts, in-depth pain. Soon I sensed she lack a friend or someone with whom she can share all her grief. At that moment all I was capable of doing was just to listen to her heart. Oh my god she suffered to the core in her too young age. She said she will never speak to anyone coz she is worried about her thoughts-maturity level, as she didn’t study beyond 7^th standard. She got married at 13. Crazy man even today all these happening in our country Mera Bharat Mahan…..!!! I said maturity got nothing to do with how well you are educated. Everyone is champion in their own life-it’s just the kind of exposure you got ,experience you had and thoughts born within you when life has thrown ultimate curve balls at you. Sorry dear no projected intentions to discuss about you here. Not violating basic standards of honesty in dealing with you.

Just was consoling each other as people say

“Do Bekaar log hi ek doosre ka sahara ban sakta hai…!”

By the time Priest arrived @ around 1345 hrs we became very good friends ;) She was on her first place in queue. After around half an hour she came out with her hubby and someone dropped in before me. I let them go thought they might be in real need than me. She asked me to make myself free someday to drop into her house, I said sure and told her don’t ever hesitate to call me if you wanna talk to someone.

After a while a couple with little gal checked-in to the place. The little gal was enjoying with her little water bottle no clue was she playing with it or she was thirsty. She just was smiling at me (I doubt if I seemed a cartoon to her) and playing with my vanity bag. Then her mom was the first one to utter a word. How long he will take..?

Me: no clue I have come here for the 1^st time, 1^st time ever in my life.

Her dad got bugged up to sit there and he went out for a little walk. When he returned he got some toffees. He asked that little one to share with me but as usual kid’s do she didn’t. I said its okay…. I forgave that little one for not sharing my part of toffee as she was only 2 year old ;)

Now her father started his little daredevil's story. She is very mischievous and too much of galate all the time it seems. It must be true else why will they come to an astrologer/priest to ask for some inputs to avoid her from doing serious terrible things.He revealed that they have spent around Rs.40, 000/- to get rid of her serious mischievous. That was the time was I gazing at that little one, thought much worse than me when I was little. They have done so many pooja’s and even Homa alone for Rs.25, 000/- for the sake of her naughtiness, my goodness! She wore quite a lot sacred threads in her neck, dad stating the cost for each one of those. Her dad was deeply hurt & said she don’t eat anything coz has eaten the peace of their sweet home.

After a while I popped in and I told wanna know why it’s happening with me all the time…Actually so many whys????? He asked me to give my DOB and I gave mine .For all these days as per my DOB I believed that I am a Taurean and my star is Rohini. (It was not only my assumption another priest told me @ home, even zodiac sign in internet or TV shows says the same).

Today I learnt I am Ariean and my star is Bharani…my quest in cracking mystery indeed created one more confusion. Am I a Taurean or Ariean…????? Whatever! Does not make much difference when I am not comfortable with my own life... I asked him in spite of my honest efforts why am I not getting succeeded not only in my career! Whatever I do, almost everything goes dead wrong.

He said there is no word I can speak about your time its exceptionally brilliant and its really rocking. Your star is Bharani and you will rule the earth…when I can’t handle myself how I wish I would rule the earth. Probably yes if I am a politician. I was lost deep in my thoughts if its rocking this is the scenario!!! If it gets worse then in which corner of hell I must find myself???

The things which happened with me in last three months which aroused so many whys???? Within me… I thought its total influence of Navgrahas-Surya, Soma, Mangal, Buddh, Brihaspati, Shukra, Shani, Rahu and Ketu everyone are against me. At-least Shukra- venus was supposed to be in favor of me as Taurus is ruled by the venus. Even it has ditched me :(

IBM India Pvt ltd (Manyata):

On 15^th Jan after clearing the entire set of rounds, interviewer said he is quite happy with me coz I have done same thing earlier as Recruiter with IBM India Pvt ltd (DD). We will put you into HR-recruitment team for HR policies L & D (Learning & development Dept). The very next day I received call saying I am over qualified for the position & they have considered another candidate. My question is why didn’t they decide earlier..????

Personal Network:

I had been to Personal Network on 27^th of Feb for interview. After clearing all the rounds on 28^th again they asked me to come on 1^st of March to see my on job performance (on job performance- freaking word I heard in recent times). On 1^ST March I went to showcase my on job performance ;) After lunch that MD Mr. Prabhu spoke to me and explained everything about job and about two weeks of training. He said its target based and I will be getting salary based on the no. of offers I will be rolling out. I said that's fine but I need to know basic one, its highly impossible to make a living in city like Bangalore for nil pay in case if expected targets were not reached. He was numb for a while and said that was a good question and all crap. He asked me to call in the evening and that idiot did not answer my call at all. I tried for 4 days and then I went on 9^th March that was the date I was supposed to join. At the end of the day I asked when I can expect my offer to the gal with whom I was working. She said u will get at the end of the week its Ur probation period and all crap. I said probation period is for taking a call about appraisal, considering their performance not to decide whether to give offer or not. Then she assured me that I am thro’ & she said she will give me a call in the evening. Neither she did nor did I feel to, coz I never thought it could be something as imp..!. Real fun started on Tuesday I mean 2^nd of March, I was late by ten mins and got belted so badly with that so called MD, Mr.Prabhu. I thought of giving him back nicely saying we haven't made any agreement so far and I am not given with any offer yet and none explained me about rules and regulations here. Don’t know may be coz he was one sadist fellow or I was in need of job. That day they asked me to work only for an hour, after one hour I asked that gal what’s happening, she told nothing will give a call in two days time. I didn’t receive as I predicted the scenario.

Symbiosis network:

It was no less than other two, 1^st round was over the phone. After an initial round of discussion I was called for 2^nd round. When I reached there a gal asked me to take aptitude. Sudha-One who took my 1^st was not available, I said I was told that I will have only personal interview I will wait till Sudha will be back. Aptitude – crazy man it’s been years that I have solved Agarwal though pretty sensible logical & Analytical questions unlike Puzzles by Shankunthala Devi. She came after 2 hours and took another personal interview, she said we normally don’t inform candidates that they have to take aptitude else they wont come for an interview it seems. Thought what a cheap trick!!! Whatever apti was quite easy and luckily I cleared it. One thing so freaked me out was she wants to put me into BA Team as BA (Business Analyst). I said I don’t have prior exp as BA I worked only in recruitment she said you don’t have to worry will train you. Received call by next evening for another personal interview saying our director wants to talk to you….That even went quite well. Finally they called me for one more personal interview .!!! I have no clue and didn’t bother to ask with whom as well. How many personal interviews??? My god! Don’t know about their technique of recruiting employees. I was laughing deep inside already I was so messed up with what I was doing and what I have studied and again one more curve…??? Imaging me as a BA ;) was little concerned where I was leading; only lead me to an astrologer/ Priest.

Han digital solutions Pvt ltd:

Though i was backed up for 4 hours, 1 hr 45 mins personal interview and 1 hr 30 mins on job performance, I must confess the interviewer got amazing domain knowledge in different verticals.

Cooperp solutions, Axiom EDA products Pvt ltd, Pinnacle manpower, Global hunt.. Similar experience with all the above nothing less nothing more.

But end of the day all my worries began decaying instantly at the touch of night after listening to souls which were much more troubled than I ever had and the Hope that my Priest gave me that my time is really rocking… let me freak-out if its really rocking... ;)