Life on WINGS

In everyone's life, there comes a time of ultimate challenge.
- a time when all our resources are tested
-a time when life seems so unfair
- a time when our faith, our values, our patience, our compassion, our ability to persist are pushed to the limit and beyond...but @ the same time gives you the wings to explore the WORLD of yours....

Spread your wings and fly away far away

Monday, April 27, 2009

The other side of intrepid lady...


The intrepid lady here is undoubtedly me. The Incident happened on 10th April which proved even I am one among
"Seedi Saadi si Bharatiya so called Nazook girls".I mean Pukleshi - Darpok ladki hoon. I was chatting with a friend of mine and all of a sudden power went off coz of short circuit in the building at around 2030 hrs. All I was worried about was my comp as intense sparks came from spike board. However I was quite certain that no damage I mean apparent one might have occurred to my comp coz monitor was gazing at me & vice-versa. I don’t wish see any harm happening to it coz it has equally gone thro’ al
l the phases as I had. I just put the system off and sat in my balcony waiting restlessly for power to come nevertheless a wife waiting for her husband to return from work. Guys don’t expect! it’s been ruled out from “Marriage geeta”. “Marriage Geeta” just like “Bhagavad Geeta”. Now-a-days it’s pretty hard to wait for someone to return home as everyone is running out of time such a busy life u see ;)

Soon I learnt that there was a power fluctuation at the electric pole and I could see the flames coming out of street light. Few mins later even street light was deceased leaving behind pungent odor as cables were parched.

I realized that there is no point in waiting and informed Latha our cashier in the PG. Too high fundoo PG
u know we have collection dept, super-vision dept means supervisor, yet there is no warden… whatever ! They tried calling KEB guys couple of times as expected there won’t be any response from them. I really doubt will Govt ever be reachable to help for ordinary people in our country. I was left with a candle light for the rest of the night. As I stay in top floor(2nd), plywood partition room, Ceramic tiles pretty hot unlike marbles, no ventilator at all, one control switch for two fans with high speed & no regulator- so all time with Full speed fans - full noise else Zero speed fans – Zero noise choice is ours it’s almost like Indra Bhavan (Lord Indra’s palace). Lambi kahani - almost a great epic. The only reason to opt such room was slightly spacious among all coz I really got enough junk I mean luggage ;) and imagine
Junk * 3 (Junk * 3 = Mine, Poori’s, Sukanya’s) couldn’t fit them in other rooms. Even we were running short of time to search for better place and our only prerequisite was it must be in koramangala.


Aur Huzoor “kuch paane ke liye kuch khona padta hai”…

Me and Poori finished candle light dinner coz power didn’t turn-up even when needles in clock crossed 2200 hrs. We were getting baked up in our room coz more or less it resembles oven. I was worried how to sleep when I wasn’t able to stay for few mins without fan. Then I suggested her how about resting in terrace?

Poori: Don’t you think it’s risky..??
Me: In life-once in a while we need to take risks, worry only about which one is worth ta
king ;)

She was slightly worried initially & then she agreed. So far none has taken such an audacious decision of sleeping in terrace that too in a city like Bangalore & area like Koramangala coz its better known to be Kollemangala as most of the robbery will happen here at-least once in fortnight and Sollemanagala hometown for Mosquitoes.
Koramangala - Most happening place in Bangalore.


We were getting ready with our Bedspreads, Pillows, Mobiles and Mp4 player.


Poori: Shall we remove all valuable gold Jewelry’s Neck chain, Rings both Fingers & Ears?
Me: Your life is much more precious than these ornaments could ever be. If incase any thief atta
cks us touchwood! in midnight at-least we can rescue our lives by offering jewelry to s/he.

She was expressionless for a moment and then with a broad smile we started our way to terrace. I wonder if she was amazed by my thought ;) I am sure she would have got shattered.

Once we reached terrace we were slightly scared coz it was pitch dark and our PG is located next to BDA’s vacant property. The only jungle I saw in Bangalore other than IISC. After spreading bedspreads and pillows on floor, we were lying under the sky-stars-moon, natural A/C ;) weather was awesome. Only thing missing was music… We turned-on the Mp4 player Poori put one earphone into my ear and other into hers with song Falak tak chal saath chal fallowed by Jaadu hai nasha hai, Kabhi shaam dhale to mere dil mein aa jaana, Hum tumse n
a kuch keha paaye… so on so forth….. Moon was much delightful than usual one, tried to capture in camera but it wasn’t lucid and to our shock one star was appearing next to moon which wasn’t visible to bare eyes.

All of a sudden a thought triggered in my mind to have a weapon on a safer side incase anyone assaults us! as we both do not know karate, not even to slap. However I got one weapon which can save two lives for the night that was half broken red brick which was lying in the terrace lazy bugger to come down and carry a knife. I kept the brick next to me to my right.

Poori: Do you think it will workout?
Me: Why not?
Poori:
If someone attacks me and incase if you are in deep sleep and get confused whom u r hitting?

Me: Not to worry
. In either case we will be safe.
Poori: How so?
Me: As it's just a brick that too half broken none will die. Slightly will get hurt that’s it. In either case you will scream, if I hit the thief s/he will get hurt and we will runaway and incase if I hit you – you will scream beyond your usual tone level and s/he will runaway or someone will come to rescue us. How is it?
Poori:
“Dirty stare-smile-get lost” assorted expressions.

Our kumba karni (only for sleep) landed in her dreamland when time just hit 2315 hrs. As usual me gazing at the sky. It was around 2330 hrs water was falling in syntex tank cashier forgot to put off the motor when power went off (she will on and off the motor apart from collecting rent). I thought power has come and even confirmed with Soumya but then lethargy in me said stay back.

All of a sudden I heard the footsteps on iron staircase and I was quite sure someone was coming up. My mind was spinning and I was keeping an eye on my brick. As I turned to my left I saw Niharika – next door girl in PG. Actually she got tensed looking at us. None dared to rest in terrace as anyone can directly reach terrace without interrupting anyone inside the building- staircase is totally isolated from entrance doors and we even don’t have security guard.


She wore pencil heeled sandals and was talking over the phone. Terrace was the private place for most of the girls. Only thing which got my nerves was she was circling us and talking over the phone, her Tuk-Tuk footsteps irritated me. I don’t mind if she can accommodate herself to some corner do whatever she wants. I really didn’t understand her intention…As people get more & more exposed to outer world I think their basic
C-senses will blackout.

It was around 0030 hrs and I could not withhold the chilliness and started shivering and I decided to get back to room. To my luck Poori got up for first call very unusual thing to happen. We are back on our way to our room. Stairs are too narrow if u miss one
“seeda neeche then seeda upar…”
something like “living life on the edge”. First hitting yourself hard against ground and then direct ticket to life after death.


“The only way to go is up when you are deep down”…. ;)


When we came down we learnt that there was no power for half portion of second floor I mean for three rooms including ours… :( totally-completely baked up all-night in the oven, Poori snoozing in oven too I doubt “Bhagvan ne use kis mitti se banaya hai”.
Last instant I remembered b4 I got into sleep was needles in the clock hitting 0430 hrs.

Next day when I woke up in the morning I learnt that my comp was much safe and sound :)

Saturday, April 18, 2009

In the quest of key for confusion - added one more….


I was so stressed-out from past three months and utterly messed up in handling my own soul. On Wednesday I went to Gani’s place to share my innermost thoughts, anger, frustration, irritation to be honest I went to give some damki’s. Usually I try to be soft spoken, well balanced & composed soul until & unless things don’t lead from bad to even more worse .Gani-My only boyfriend Lord Ganesh, I trust him to the core & he troubles me to the core. He still got so many nick-names Vinnu, Vicky, Gaj, Om, Vakra etc etc… I recently learnt that he got 1000 other names and well-known with 108. So lucky freak, can flirt with 1000 gals with diverse names ;)


I almost stepped out of temple then I setback myself & decided to discuss with Priest about reason behind ongoing turmoil’s in my life. I actually am an Atheist-To communicate in a broad sense-to a particular god or religion however I believe something called super natural power is taking care of every freaking thing in the universe. When I revealed the things that were bothering me he asked me to go to an astrologer. I said I don’t believe them as they just make all fairy tales and brain wash helpless people I wanna talk to someone trusty. I really do not know what big difference I found between astrologer and Priest that I opted Priest than an astrologer. He honestly helped me to get the contact number of famous well-known Priest Mr. Subramanyam Udupa in the city. I was quite happy as though I am gonna crack some mystery that was playing rugby with me day and night.


Finally I got the appointment on 17th April @ 1230 hrs. I took shower and rushed to catch the bus to reach where he was put-up i.e., Wilson garden. I reached the door of my hope @ 1130 hrs. I met him near gate, he said I will be back in half an hour time would you mind to wait. I said no, you please carry on of-course I can wait. I thought when I can wait for my dreams to come true forever no matter if it will take my entire life!!! Why not an half an hour..????


As I entered lobby I saw a gal. Jyoti: One more troubled soul like me was eagerly waiting to know answer to her problems. Her husband was accompanying Priest to his destination. After a while I broke the silence asking her is it the first time that she has come here?


Jyoti: No. we know him over the years.

I thought okay I am at the right place seems he is genuine person.

Jyoti: How about u?

Me: yeah first time.

Jyoti: Anything personal as in marriage.

Me: I grinned and said nope it’s about my career.

Jyoti: okay.


Again I was the one to break the silence; coz silence was flooding thousand million thoughts in my mind. I just revealed the reason I have come here in brief not to trouble already troubled soul.


I really don’t know what freaking thing she saw in me that she started sharing all her innermost thoughts, in-depth pain. Soon I sensed she lack a friend or someone with whom she can share all her grief. At that moment all I was capable of doing was just to listen to her heart. Oh my god she suffered to the core in her too young age. She said she will never speak to anyone coz she is worried about her thoughts-maturity level, as she didn’t study beyond 7th standard. She got married at 13. Crazy man even today all these happening in our country Mera Bharat Mahan…..!!! I said maturity got nothing to do with how well you are educated. Everyone is champion in their own life-it’s just the kind of exposure you got ,experience you had and thoughts born within you when life has thrown ultimate curve balls at you. Sorry dear no projected intentions to discuss about you here. Not violating basic standards of honesty in dealing with you.

Just was consoling each other as people say


“Do Bekaar log hi ek doosre ka sahara ban sakta hai…!”


By the time Priest arrived @ around 1345 hrs we became very good friends ;) She was on her first place in queue. After around half an hour she came out with her hubby and someone dropped in before me. I let them go thought they might be in real need than me. She asked me to make myself free someday to drop into her house, I said sure and told her don’t ever hesitate to call me if you wanna talk to someone.


After a while a couple with little gal checked-in to the place. The little gal was enjoying with her little water bottle no clue was she playing with it or she was thirsty. She just was smiling at me (I doubt if I seemed a cartoon to her) and playing with my vanity bag. Then her mom was the first one to utter a word. How long he will take..?

Me: no clue I have come here for the 1st time, 1st time ever in my life.

Her dad got bugged up to sit there and he went out for a little walk. When he returned he got some toffees. He asked that little one to share with me but as usual kid’s do she didn’t. I said its okay…. I forgave that little one for not sharing my part of toffee as she was only 2 year old ;)


Now her father started his little daredevil's story. She is very mischievous and too much of galate all the time it seems. It must be true else why will they come to an astrologer/priest to ask for some inputs to avoid her from doing serious terrible things.He revealed that they have spent around Rs.40, 000/- to get rid of her serious mischievous. That was the time was I gazing at that little one, thought much worse than me when I was little. They have done so many pooja’s and even Homa alone for Rs.25, 000/- for the sake of her naughtiness, my goodness! She wore quite a lot sacred threads in her neck, dad stating the cost for each one of those. Her dad was deeply hurt & said she don’t eat anything coz has eaten the peace of their sweet home.


After a while I popped in and I told wanna know why it’s happening with me all the time…Actually so many whys????? He asked me to give my DOB and I gave mine .For all these days as per my DOB I believed that I am a Taurean and my star is Rohini. (It was not only my assumption another priest told me @ home, even zodiac sign in internet or TV shows says the same).


Today I learnt I am Ariean and my star is Bharani…my quest in cracking mystery indeed created one more confusion. Am I a Taurean or Ariean…????? Whatever! Does not make much difference when I am not comfortable with my own life... I asked him in spite of my honest efforts why am I not getting succeeded not only in my career! Whatever I do, almost everything goes dead wrong.


He said there is no word I can speak about your time its exceptionally brilliant and its really rocking. Your star is Bharani and you will rule the earth…when I can’t handle myself how I wish I would rule the earth. Probably yes if I am a politician. I was lost deep in my thoughts if its rocking this is the scenario!!! If it gets worse then in which corner of hell I must find myself???


The things which happened with me in last three months which aroused so many whys???? Within me… I thought its total influence of Navgrahas-Surya, Soma, Mangal, Buddh, Brihaspati, Shukra, Shani, Rahu and Ketu everyone are against me. At-least Shukra- venus was supposed to be in favor of me as Taurus is ruled by the venus. Even it has ditched me :(

IBM India Pvt ltd (Manyata):


On 15th Jan after clearing the entire set of rounds, interviewer said he is quite happy with me coz I have done same thing earlier as Recruiter with IBM India Pvt ltd (DD). We will put you into HR-recruitment team for HR policies L & D (Learning & development Dept). The very next day I received call saying I am over qualified for the position & they have considered another candidate. My question is why didn’t they decide earlier..????

Personal Network:


I had been to Personal Network on 27th of Feb for interview. After clearing all the rounds on 28th again they asked me to come on 1st of March to see my on job performance (on job performance- freaking word I heard in recent times). On 1ST March I went to showcase my on job performance ;) After lunch that MD Mr. Prabhu spoke to me and explained everything about job and about two weeks of training. He said its target based and I will be getting salary based on the no. of offers I will be rolling out. I said that's fine but I need to know basic one, its highly impossible to make a living in city like Bangalore for nil pay in case if expected targets were not reached. He was numb for a while and said that was a good question and all crap. He asked me to call in the evening and that idiot did not answer my call at all. I tried for 4 days and then I went on 9th March that was the date I was supposed to join. At the end of the day I asked when I can expect my offer to the gal with whom I was working. She said u will get at the end of the week its Ur probation period and all crap. I said probation period is for taking a call about appraisal, considering their performance not to decide whether to give offer or not. Then she assured me that I am thro’ & she said she will give me a call in the evening. Neither she did nor did I feel to, coz I never thought it could be something as imp..!. Real fun started on Tuesday I mean 2nd of March, I was late by ten mins and got belted so badly with that so called MD, Mr.Prabhu. I thought of giving him back nicely saying we haven't made any agreement so far and I am not given with any offer yet and none explained me about rules and regulations here. Don’t know may be coz he was one sadist fellow or I was in need of job. That day they asked me to work only for an hour, after one hour I asked that gal what’s happening, she told nothing will give a call in two days time. I didn’t receive as I predicted the scenario.


Symbiosis network:


It was no less than other two, 1st round was over the phone. After an initial round of discussion I was called for 2nd round. When I reached there a gal asked me to take aptitude. Sudha-One who took my 1st was not available, I said I was told that I will have only personal interview I will wait till Sudha will be back. Aptitude – crazy man it’s been years that I have solved Agarwal though pretty sensible logical & Analytical questions unlike Puzzles by Shankunthala Devi. She came after 2 hours and took another personal interview, she said we normally don’t inform candidates that they have to take aptitude else they wont come for an interview it seems. Thought what a cheap trick!!! Whatever apti was quite easy and luckily I cleared it. One thing so freaked me out was she wants to put me into BA Team as BA (Business Analyst). I said I don’t have prior exp as BA I worked only in recruitment she said you don’t have to worry will train you. Received call by next evening for another personal interview saying our director wants to talk to you….That even went quite well. Finally they called me for one more personal interview .!!! I have no clue and didn’t bother to ask with whom as well. How many personal interviews??? My god! Don’t know about their technique of recruiting employees. I was laughing deep inside already I was so messed up with what I was doing and what I have studied and again one more curve…??? Imaging me as a BA ;) was little concerned where I was leading; only lead me to an astrologer/ Priest.


Han digital solutions Pvt ltd:


Though i was backed up for 4 hours, 1 hr 45 mins personal interview and 1 hr 30 mins on job performance, I must confess the interviewer got amazing domain knowledge in different verticals.


Cooperp solutions, Axiom EDA products Pvt ltd, Pinnacle manpower, Global hunt.. Similar experience with all the above nothing less nothing more.


But end of the day all my worries began decaying instantly at the touch of night after listening to souls which were much more troubled than I ever had and the Hope that my Priest gave me that my time is really rocking… let me freak-out if its really rocking... ;)